space bound!

About to be Space bound in my rocketship, travelling from this land of plenty into a void.
My clothes stained wit d tears of my loved ones as they beg me to stay.
 I leave my heart with them!

 I leave behind all my memories, my possessions, my family. Taking with me only the 2 tear snakes wriggling down my eyes! My most prized possession, my sorrow!

 I am garbed in my space suit! My armour! The wall standing between me and them! As i stand watching them from the platform, they yell and scream! Waving frantically at me, i pretend i can't see them, my helmet hides my sorrow as i stand stoic! A statue rid of all the harrows of life! Rid of the pain of caring!

 I take in a huge shuddering breath, trying to fill my lungs wit all the memories of this place i will never return to! I take a deep shuddering breath trying not to feel the heavy chains still binding my heart to this place!

Behind me is the vessel that would take me to oblivion, my very own metal coffin bearing my shell out of this place! Bearing my flesh into nothingness. for i know i am leaving the very essence of me, my soul, behind!

Time to board! I clench my heart! Squeezing every little droplet of emotion out and take my ungainly steps up the ramp! I focus on my legs willing them to move, first left then right! Move damn you, take me into tommorrow!

Then out of nowhere i see her! The memory slams into me a force 5 typhoon, leaving me winded! A whirlwind of feelings, swirl in my heart, black and white polaroids of an ancient emotion flashing intermittently through my heart! Betrayed by me, the rain falls! The storm rages violently inside me but all dat escapes are the few teardrops falling behind my helmet, a tsunami of dew drops, gentle yet devastating! my mask my saving grace!

Then eureka!, an epiphany, i realize that i run not from them but from her! I strip myself of everything only with the hope that i rid myself of the reigns she has bridled my heart with! The images flash faster! Her shape, her walk, her tears, her laugh! Then a climax and a freeze frame! Her smile! Pasted firmly on the wall of my heart!

"Captain, what's your status?" The voice shocks me out of my reverie, dazed and more than a little afraid i turn around in crazy dizzying circles searching for the speaker, till i remember the control center! I lick my very dry lips and hear a cracked voice that can't possibly be mine reply "on my way to the ship"

"Baby are you alright" the voice says again, i have a double take! she is dere in the command center watching me, Ushering me into oblivion! My heart answers her question, hammering its answer against my chest in the morse code of love! THUMP, THUMP, THUMP! A village soldier sounding the battle drums!, A herd of zebra running from the death personified by the lion!, the heart of a man lying to his lover! "I am fine" i mutter as i walk in and the doors gently close, sealing her out forever!